If you have very high tolerance levels because of having to just ‘grin and bear it’ as a child and now you find yourself sticking with bad situations (a demeaning job, unhealthy relationship etc) for too long, what can you do about it? How can you start to recognise when you should step away from it?
Psychologies.co.uk tweet about ‘Are you secretly depressed?’ Hit a raw nerve with me. Especially the quote above. Since I’ve been young I’ve hidden my depression without realising it as I knew I was different to those around me for various reasons. One of them was my disability.
Since I was the only disabled student in the majority of the schools I went to I couldn’t identify with anyone else. Deafness is something that is difficult to understand. I would be the only student in the school who had a radio aid so I’m pretty sure all the teachers knew who I was. As well as the students.
The point I’m trying to make is that I’ve looked different to others for the listening devices I had to wear and the specialist microphone that I would have to ask the teachers to wear so I could hear them better. I had to ‘grin and bear it’ in order to survive at school and get a decent education.
There’s plenty of times upon reflection that I realise I shouldn’t have put up with certain situations. I’m slowing changing my habits to not do this.
I had to ask a neighbour I’ve never spoken to before to pick up his dogs mess the other day! His dog was roaming around on the street and chose my place of residence to do its business. In the past I wouldn’t have gone up to a stranger. I would have just ‘grinned and beared it’.
No more I say. No more. No wonder why I get or have had depression for yonks.